Personally, i have created this blog as all the time i question what the world perceives of me vs how i view myself.
I see myself as manipulative, selfish and needing to be liked. However, recently i tested how people who i interact with view me…. Words produced were: kind, caring, productive, sunny, outgoing, loving. None of these i would use for myself.
I feel every human action has an ulterior motive behind it. When im kind, its because i want them to like me. When i smile, its because i dont want people to see the self-conscious me. When im loud and excitable, its because i dont want to cry.
My actions are false shield put up so people cant see the real me. Anytime someone gets close, another defence goes up.
Now my question is, i am but one person, how many people do this? Then to what extent can you truely say you know someone.